Thursday, August 23, 2007
~ 7:03 PM ~
hmms. kinda have lots of things to recap today? let's see...
20/08/2007(Monday)
hmms. well, firstly, i gotta say sorry to a lot of people for today, ya. namely the hbh sisters and some others whom i affected their mood? went to school today feeling very crappy. went to school and was feeling emo lahs. didnt really talk to charis they all today during the morning assembly to yeahs. sorry!
couldn't help it to yeahs. started crying. and i cried really bad today. hoi ching came over to see if i am okay and i like.. just burst out crying. so yeahs. sorry! singing the national anthem that time also cried. then later mdm siti asked me if anything happen. she ask me if i quarrelled with the hbh sisters or there's anything wrong at home. but i said no of course. cos i didnt cry cos of them mahs.
went to the toilet to calm myself abit. saw from the mirror that my eyes were like.. kinda like.. bloodshot? then later mdm siti keep asking what happen. then i just say i stress. LOLS. cause its like.. aiya. don't know how to say these kinda things? so yeahs. and she believed that i was too stressed out. so yeahs.
PE wasnt in the mood, ya know. cried again. as usual, lined up at the basketball court. then, koon leong was like sitting beside me. so yeahs. he is like.. heys. cheer up lehs. dun cry liaos. exams are near, ya know. and stuffs like these. then later, when the girls were on their way to the arena, i was with hoi ching. then its like. i saw jia xu. then he saw me crying so he is like. heys. dun cry liaos. and he sand ting ma ma de hua to me. like. so damn touched by him.
wasnt in the mood to play. then jin yan, sharon they all sang cry on my shoulder and we're all in this together for me. and i was also very touched by them, ya know. then blah blah blah. started to rain. i really wanna stay in the rain and soak an just forget about everything. seriously. so yeahs. headed back to class. blah blah blah. CME next. mdm siti did something about stress. lols. i got like 38 for the stress thingy. later mdm siti call me out of the classroom see if i am okay. so yeahs..
hmms.. went to study next. after school. totally wasnt in the mood to study. before that, its like.. hong de they all wanna take picture of me and any boys. like wth. i am not in the mood still likdat. i am like damn pissed at them lors. then skipped lunch. went BK study. nothing went in at all. started crying again. zzz. couldnt help it, ya know. then called hoi ching. cause i don't know who to call. then lalalalas. went home super early. like 4 likdat. so yeahs. back home emo-ed and blah blah blah. slept.
thank you for those who cared. you guys really made me very touched.
21/08/2007(Tuesday)
hmms.. kinda forgot what happened today. went for training and stuffs. blah blah blah. nothing much i guess.
22/08/2007(Wednesday)
hmms. was a lil emo today? i duno. there's like 3 things that made me emo today? after school went to tiong with hoi ching, aaron, lawrence, kian tiong, yang you, joel lim and wei lun. ate at mac. kinda talk a lot? but me and hoi ching sat at different tables with the guys. lalalas. after lunch, wei lun went back while the rest headed for BK to study.
didnt study much today. crap a lot. me, kian tiong, aaron and lawrence kinda like tried to take picture of hoi ching and joel lim together. lols. kinda fun? hahas. then i was sitting next to hoi ching while kian tiong beside joel lim. then i will like:" kian tiong!" then start to push hoi ching to joel lim. hahas. i am evil. =D but kian tiong was like blur so never push joel lim. so yeahs. lols. today told kian tiong and aaron smth.
kinda like regretted? i duno. came back then yeahs. chatted with hoi ching and harris. hmms.. felt kinda better bahs. i duno. later dar came to ask me if i am okay. as in msn. so yeahs.. chatted for awhile then went to sleep.
23/08/2007(Thursday)
hmms. today. emo-ing the whole day until after oral. hmms.. lots of things happened, ya know. went to the toilet during art and chinese to listen to music and cry. zzz. i know. i am like.. extreme these few days? i duno lahs. then yeahs. nothing much. history sucks like hell lots. zzz. had to do group work. and suay suay, my grp no girls except for me. zzz! sat at aaron's table to complete it.
then later aaron started to msg me and ask if i am okay. blah. i duno. oral next. wee leong keep making me nervous by saying:" WO HEN JING ZHANG! ZHEN ME BAN!" like wth. i wasnt nervous at first de lor. then he make me nervous. then at this time, hong de go say eh cindy! ur turn liaos! then i gan jiong lor! quickly stand up and see. end up he trick me. -.- then second time, i dun believe him. but is the truth. zzz.
oral was pretty okay for the passage. but for the conversation, i totally screwed it by crapping. zzz. back for trg. nothing much today. physical training today. walked to tiong with charis after trg. treated her sweet talk. lols. blah blah blah. back home. started posting since 7.
`sometimes i really wonder if u are worth my tears. i look at the way u cared for her while u didnt for me. and i look at the way others cared for me while you didn't even bother.
